October 2011
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A bigger kind of gift.
Today, I was spending the day around the house. I have a friend who was talking about spiritual gifts. She was talking about how she had taken a test online to figure out what were her spiritual gifts. The longer she spoke about it, the more I wanted to see my response. So, I jumped up and took the test.
I honestly didn’t know what to expect as my response. After answering 140ish...
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Live.
If you stop making goals in your life, you lose your ambition.
Your passion.
In general you lose yourself.
If you quit aspiring for greater, you’ll never be fully satisfied. I don’t want to grow up and look back and say, “Damn, there is a lot I should have done. I could have tried a little bit harder. I gave up too easy.”
Don’t get me wrong, it is great to be...
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What you may not know about me is...
When I smile out of true and utter happiness, you see more gums than teeth because my lip curls up.
When I smile while I’m laughing, my left eye is normally lazy.
When I really care about a friend, I’ll spend my last dollar to help them.
When I laugh, it’s almost never the same. I can promise it’s always loud though.
When I cry, there is normally a whirlwind of things...
I just...
spent the past fifteen minutes on the phone with volunteer services at a local hospital. I put in my application to be a volunteer online, and hopefully I’ll get chosen to help. She was such a sweet woman. I asked any questions that weren’t answered on the site. She said she would pray that I get the job i’m interviewing for tomorrow.
They may not have any openings until the...
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A big idea.
After doing a random act of kindness yesterday, I’m still on a natural high. Still feeling really happy. I know it wasn’t anything major, but it was still something that I hope brought a smile upon the face of that couple.
When I was younger, I did those kind of things often. I used to go to soup kitchens and feed the homeless. I had elderly members at my church in high school. I...
“She thought that love was going to fight…
She thought that love was gonna...”
– Parachute’s “Philadephia”
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Go with it...
You know, I do believe that you get what you put in. If you spend most of your time being negative, that is exactly what you will receive in return. I believe that being positive will bring more positive.
Obviously life isn’t a sunny walk in the park. There are cloudy days. In order to appreciate what good we have in life, we have to take the bad in as well. I thank the Lord for my bad...
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Dear Alex,
Today marks 4 years. 4 years ago you decided that you didn’t want to ride with Heather. That you were fine to take the wheel. Four years, but I still feel like it was yesterday.
I went to Lakeland just the other weekend. Every time I pass the cemetery I wave and say a prayer for you and your family. It’s crazy to think you would be turning 25 this year.
I still think of you often....
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Why can't it be?
I’m well aware that the Disney ideal of love is quite false. I know that fairy tales such as that don’t exist. I’m well aware that Nicholas Sparks is an adult adaptation of Disney fairy tales in a way. He writes such lovely stories about true love, but they don’t happen like that in real life.
We are given such fascinating stories no matter the age. Stories about love....
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Big kid time.
Last week, I had one of the most serious mental breakdowns I have had in a while. Although my dark thoughts are always in the back of my head, the hand I’ve been dealt at the moment allows me to suppress those feelings and concentrate on bigger problems.
I’m a firm believer in praying. I pray MULTIPLE times a day. Whether it is a simple thank you, or a long list of things friends or...
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All apologies.
I was asleep not long ago, but was just awaken by someone in this house. They were concerned after someone asked if they knew I was contemplating suicide. As if on command, I’ve been receiving multiple emails/texts/calls in the past hour. I know it is because of my previous blog post.
I apologize for scaring any of you. I didn’t want any attention from it, just to get out some of my...
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Sometimes, I can’t help but wonder if jumping off a cliff would make this easier… Or tying bricks to my feet and drowning…
You forget how great you have it. I’m always walking on egg shells, and I’m tired of it.
I often question if my life is worth living a second longer, because I question my self worth.
I could be anorexic again. That’d make me skinny.
Or...
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“My model for business is The Beatles: they were four guys that kept each other’s...”
– Steve Jobs (via acardona)
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Where will you be?
Allow me to reiterate what you probably we’re already expecting. I’m not amazing. I never claimed to be. However, I could have been amazing for you. I have spent so many years letting myself accept less than I deserve, and when you came along I thought it would be different.
It’s not as if I had a prototype for a perfect beau, but I did have standards I have instilled into my search for Mr....
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Ying or Yang?
You know all those lovely cliche quotes about wanting something that isn’t yours. “If you have ying, you want yang.” Or “The grass is always greener on the other side.” Well, it is exactly what it is. Coming to the realization that you always want more, well, it sucks.
2 weeks ago, I called my ex. I apologized, as did he. I don’t want a relationship right now I...
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Communication.
You know, I didn’t realize how lost the art of communication has truly became until I started talking to “Adam.” I would say his real name, but secretly dating does not allow me to reveal it at this present moment.
In person, me and Adam are awesome. We talk about a good bit of things. Serious subjects. Yada yada yada. He has a life of his own. He works. He has offspring. All...
Gemini.: Let me clarify this right now;I am no... →
kushafornia:
Let me clarify this right now;
I am no ones last resort, mistake, or 2 month realization. I am a first choice, a priority. I deserve to be treated like a mother fucking princess and I don’t settle for anything less than that. If it takes you that long to realize you had an amazing girl who would…
This gif dances in time to almost every song.
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I’m listening to Monster by Lady Gaga. It works lol. <3
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Right now, I have him dancing to Busta Rhymes. Shake dat ass spider man. Shake it.
